December 2011
23 posts
Checklist for Hidden Anger
Procrastination in the completion of imposed tasks.
Perpetual or habitual lateness.
A liking for sadistic or ironic humor.
Sarcasm, cynicism or flippancy in conversation.
Frequent sighing.
Over-politeness, constant cheerfulness, attitude of “grin and bear it”.
Smiling while hurting.
Frequent disturbing or frightening dreams.
Over-controlled monotone speaking voice
Difficulty in getting to...
15 Styles of Distorted Thinking
Filtering: You take the negative details and magnify them while filtering out all positive aspects of a situation.
Polarized Thinking: Things are black or white, good or bad. You have to be perfect or you’re a failure. There is no middle ground.
Overgeneralization: You come to a general conclusion based on a single incident or piece of evidence. If something bad happens once you expect it to...
“You say that you love rain,
but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say...”
– William Shakespeare
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Potential Wasted
I’m not sure why or how I ever loved you. You’re a mystery to me. I am so different from you and I have changed so much, yet you seem to be growing stale. I wish you would grow and expand so that I could see in you more than the potential I see.
How sad it is when potential so great is so completely wasted. One turns to anger, one to stone; he sees naught but hatred, while he feels...
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I never really believed in this sort of thing, but I feel like I’m losing my soulmate. If anyone in this world is right for me, it has got to be you. This tears me apart.
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Why don’t we climb a mountain? We could get lost and hold each other close to keep warm. We could learn to live in nature without a single human comfort except for that of your arms around me. What I wouldn’t give to see that desire in your eyes like I was the last man in the world and you couldn’t be happier. Think of what we could do together. You and I each have a power I can...
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“Every time I look at you I get a fierce desire to be lonesome.”
– Oscar Levant
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You still have so much growing to do. I realize now that even YOU don’t know your true self yet, so how could I have fallen in love with it?
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“My heart is breaking so slowly, which is somehow worse than the already horrible...”
– Maxwell.Valentine
Perhaps the reason I never cry is because I’ve lived my whole life subconsciously holding back tears until it became second nature.
Well, I somehow seemed to have killed that instinct.
The Thing About Robert's Is...
That I refuse to ever make friends with, much less date, another one. They are always and will always be highly regrettable.
Now, I know this is dumb, and that I shouldn’t judge a person by something so cursory as his name, but I’ve had enough bad experiences with enough Robert’s to last me a fucking lifetime.
Amy Asked For Personal Information
Umm I’m 6 foot. 185lb. Gay. American. White (mostly Scandinavian, French, and Cajun). I don’t drink alcohol or caffeine (except occasional glasses of wine or chocolate milk). I am allergic to most animals and plants (and stupid people (unless they’re hung like an ox)). I like large-frame, goofy, introspective white guys and any kind of Mexican (and I’m working on ending my...
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I miss you so much that it physically hurts. WTF
I hate this. A lot. And I want to hate you, but instead I’ll probably just keeping loving you until I die, and then I’ll just be dead and loving you and maybe I’ll take up knitting. Or sewing. I have a lot of things that need sewing. But I would really need to fix those things once I’m dead, I suppose. I’ll probably have new things. Dead people things.
“I’m lucky because I know I’ll break far more hearts in my day then...”
– Maxwell.Valentine
“You Are Far
I’m Never Gonna Be Your Star
I’ll Pick Up The Pieces...”
– Michael Bublé - Kissing A Fool
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Final Clarity
I’m slowly beginning to see this situation more clearly. S was always a substitute to me, which was so horrible of me to do; I just wish I’d understood that at the time. I think he did know that and he tried anyway. I think I hated him for not telling me, although it clearly isn’t his fault. I think I was trying I prove to myself that C could love me by letting someone else love...
I’m trying so hard to move on. But I’m not willing to give you up while I fix myself. And I don’t want to get over you. I also don’t want you to get over me. I feel like all we need is a chance. How was I so sure we shouldn’t have one yet? This is absurd. We’re absurd. But we go so well together. We’re just so fun and interesting and exciting when...
“Through the meditative development of serenity, one is able to suppress...”
– Meditation - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Skandha - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia →
Form (rūpa) arises from experientially irreducible physical/physiological phenomena.[20]
Form—in terms of an external object (such as a sound) and its associated internal sense organ (such as the ear)—gives rise toconsciousness (viññāṇa • vijñāṇa).[21]
The concurrence of an object, its sense organ and the related consciousness (viññāṇa • vijñāṇa) is called “contact”...
Neuroscience of meditation and attention « Mind... →
This is changing my life. I’m so glad I meditate.
“Meditation refers to a family of self-regulation practices that focus on...”
– Walsh & Shapiro (2006)